This semester I will officially be done with ASU (well at least school wise....and I will have years of loans to still pay off lol).
I do not regret a moment spent being a Sun Devil and would not take back the friendships made for anything. As my internship slowly continues to wrap up, I find my self contemplating, "is this it?". I have been in school since I was four years old and now at twenty-two I am finally done. There has to be something more.
I would have never guessed I would be working with non-profits and in a field of work where money is not what you get paid with. I always thought when I finally finished school I would be off doing bigger and greater things, and not working for free. HOWEVER when I took the time to look at everything from more of a "Glass Half Full" approach I saw that its not about the money, and never will be. I absolutely love working within ministry and getting paid with eternal rewards and not just a paper check every two weeks. I have been lucky enough to be blessed with a wonderful steady paid job, however, which helps pay the bills.
Aside from all of this, and although it may be hard to see the point I am getting at; Life Is Short - plain and simple. I know I hear people say it all of the time, but what does it really mean??
It means that you can work all of your life and save up millions without ever being happy. It means that you can work for minimum wage and have all of the riches in Heaven. It means that the simplest things can be the greatest things.It means that God and Love are the backbones to everything that surrounds us. It means taking the time to take in natures beauty. It means telling someone you love them before it is to late. It means to live in the moment. It means to accept the past, learn from the furture, and expect the unexpected for the future. It means that everything can change in an instant. It means you never know which breath might be your last.
This past week I have encountered: fear (of a loved one in pain and poor health), stress (of finances), sadness (for family members decisions), confusion (as to why people choose to hurt others, even kill), happiness (for new found relationships), joy (in doing something nice for someone else), encouragement (for seeing so many new faces show up on a Monday night), and relief (for the way God continues to make everything okay and loves me despite it all).
Though everything and each step I take everyday towards the end of this life and the beginning of my new one; I realize I am not alone and never was. I've learned that through all of the challenges I face a much greater reward is ahead of me. I see that I am loved for the very person I am. I understand that it is not about the years of school I complete or the job I have in the end, that is about what I do with the tools I have been given.
I know this entry has been a little back and fourth, but hey isn't that not how real life is? Its up, its down, its RaNd0M, its out there, it doesn't always make sense, but its MINE and its how I make it to be.
Love Always,
K!
